i finally saw Richie, the boss of all security guards, the other night. It's been ages since I've been that old man. I gave him a big hug and asked him if he had a facebook and he asked me "do you want me to have one?" LoL Silly old man. He gave me another big hug and then I smelled like old man cologne the rest of the night. It was great!

I can finally breathe.  One year later and I am finally free of his siren's song.  I feel relieved.  I feel good.  I no longer feel overwhelmed by angst.  I think I was holding on to this idea of him - an idea of best friends getting married - an idea of happiness that he could give me (we all know he would never be able to make me happy). 

So what happens now?  What is left of that friendship?  Do I let it go?  It's about time.

I'm still alive.  Lots been going on since I've last blogged.  Miss hahahehe, if you still read this - facebook me and text me or something... suugapuff@gmail.com - I am sooo bad at inputing contacts into my phone and I screen my calls religiously!  But I would love to grab a drink - catch up.  It was so funny, I was thinking about you and how you said you live next to the big yellow house on 46...

Today was my first real day of relaxation in ages.  My bestest friend and I decided to go to Six Flags today.  I haven't seen her in ages.  It was raining like crazy.  We got there around 10:30ish.  The park closed early due to inclimate weather at 1PM... wtf!!!!!  Then we went outlet shopping at Tinton Falls.  I did some serious damage.  But it was tons and tons of fun....

So what else is going on in my life... Hmm... nothing earth shattering really.  Trying to decide if I want to date this 18 y.o.  Let's call him Jailbait, shall we?  He's bent on pursuing me.  He is out of his mind.  Telling me things like he wants to be with me and stay with me... Promising me that he will never hurt me.  Telling me that he loves me and that he is serious about me.  Man...where have I heard these things before?  Am I getting too jaded?  I tell him he's being silly and that he is young - he doesn't know what he wants.  What he thinks he wants today will be totally different tomorrow.  I don't believe an 18 y.o can offer me what I am looking for besides some great sex... and I don't feel like teaching someone how to please me.  Haha.

I know this is bad, but I straight out told him that if I decided that I would want to pursue some sort of sexual relationship with him that if the sex were to be bad then there would be no further discussion of having an actual relationship.  I feel like I have no time for bad sex,  I mean, really.  Sex is an important part of a relationship.  Umm...that's all I've got for now.  Time to go level up a priest.  Linking accounts FTW!